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Making time to have time off is becoming increasingly difficult. I've been feeling under the pump lately from the various project skeins - Fables & Nocturnes, workshops, FotoFreo Fringe, and on and on and on. It's getting to the point where I'm waking up in the morning with a mild panic attack wondering if I'm on the ball with things or if I've forgotten something critical.

This is not what I imagined it would be, down-shifting in order to be able to dedicate more time to photography about which I was (once) passionate.

I'm planning on wrapping up Fables & Nocturnes, and then going for my short holiday in Singapore - and just blanking out photography for five days.

You know, I need to bring my photography back to a personal level. Just things I want to photograph, not things that feel need to be photographed. If that differentiation makes sense.

I've sometimes wondered (or imagined) what I would do if my employment was impacted by the economic downturn ie. if I were made redundant and without employment. People talk about using this "recession" to create new opportunities, and I wonder if I would have the drive and energy to do this. I would like to think that I have the creative drive to make something out of such an "opportunity" though I suspect I'm one of those unfortunates with drive but no direction.